Becoming that which I despise
Journal Entry: Fri Apr 4, 2008, 3:09 AM
A revelation. It happens occassionally.
Recently I was asked by a model I've worked with before to shoot her again, this time with a friend. Normally I would be very flattered, but she added the stipulation; "but not like our last pictures. I want these to be really professional looking. you know, photoshopped..."
I was a bit stunned, but took up the challenge anyway! I ran the shoot the same way I always do, but spent 4 times as long in post-production retouching the images. I spent days researching and testing skin retouching techniques.
Well I finally sent her the CD she returned with "not bad, but I won't be using. I just look too fat!"
Fat. Curvy. Busty. Let's be honest, it's all in the eye of the beholder. I couldn't see what she was complaining about, but I've never been a fan of the waif look. So I spent more time touching up the images, smoothing out curves, eliminating any possible bulge. After all that she said they were "ok. don't give up the photoshopping, it looks great"
Now, I'm not naive. My last job was working in the imaging department of a clothing catalogue. I know what goes on before the books go to press. But I always told myself that I wouldn't get caught up in it. I would accept girls for who they are, not what they are. That somehow in my photography I would help them shine without the post-production special effects everyone raves about.
But who am I kidding. Not one of the images you see in my gallery has avoided retouching of some kind or other. And since my episode with that model I've started doing it with almost every model. Even the amazing Bec (check the gallery) who has flawless skin, underwent microscopic removal of moles and blemishes...
How did I get caught up in this? Many years ago my younger sister suffered from bulimia nervosa. Influenced by the media, magazines, and peer pressure, she starved and binged and vomited her way through her teens. I hated every magazine I saw because it featured unrealistic images of women that were far from perfection, but were ridiculously idolised by the media, driving my sister and many like her to torture themselves in pursuit of an impossible dream.
And yet here I am. Years later, getting caught up in the same charade. Have I let my sister down? Have I let myself down? Have I become that which I despised...?
- Mood:
Regretful - Listening to: Rise Against
- Watching: The development of my own uncertain future
- Eating: anything with a million calories in it
- Drinking: Lots of decaf coffee
Devious Comments
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Today I finally overcame tryin' to fit the world inside a picture frame, Maybe I will tell you all about it when I'm in the mood to lose my way with words
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We will win because we believe in something
There is the fantasy world that appeals to some and the reality world which appeals to others. If you want to please both then you have to do everything twice with a version for each group.
I am drawn more to the reality world and get great pleasure from the raw and natural. This is what I see and touch in my reality. Bumps, blemishes, scars, and especially those magnificent curves that signify womanhood and drive men through genetic reaction to arousal and mating rituals...
It's odd and concerning that adults even consider a skeletal, childlike waif as attractive...
So no touch-ups for me, please! And lots and lots of those dangerous curves!!
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Live, Love, Laugh - Life is too short not to be Happy
This guy is different though, no retouching what so ever and the pictures look absolutely amazing.
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Carpe diem
Bottom line, be true to your craft and be the best photographer you can be, anything else is a afterthought and no matter the amount of retouching you and the client may never be happy with the result.
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"It's wonderful world, with such creative people in it!" [link]
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Today I finally overcame tryin' to fit the world inside a picture frame, Maybe I will tell you all about it when I'm in the mood to lose my way with words
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Today I finally overcame tryin' to fit the world inside a picture frame, Maybe I will tell you all about it when I'm in the mood to lose my way with words
But I think the shorter answer is: no.
The medium length answer is:
Whenever one creates art they are essentially putting in concrete form their own sense of values, and their interpretation of reality.
As my favortie author called it - a concretezation of meta-physical value judgments.
I have to, as always, agree with her.
Everything one chooses to create and emphasize in their work is a statement of their own philosophy, even if they do not intend it to be.
To create a work that focuses on the imperfections of the body, inherently makes a statement about the artists feelings about the human body, and even the human creature in general.
To focus on the flaws might mean that you accept mankind at their most imperfect. That you might even relish in our blemishes. That you think little of man. Or perhaps that you think the glory of man is to be found in our weaknesses.
To create a work which eliminates all the flaws might send a more positive message about man kind. That our glory is found in our beauty, our strength, our form, our perfection. That the body is something to constantly improve, that the body is something to be proud of. Something to be revered.
Now I agree whole-heartedly that bombardment from the media of these perfect men and women with 1% body fat can truly impact a person's self esteem, as it seems to have with your sister. That is a serious problem. One that I certainly don't have the answer to.
But I will say this... I am sure that your sister would agree that creating work that glorifies the fat, the pimples, the flaws, the mediocrity of mankind - just to make us all feel a little better about our own flawed form - is not the answer either.
So the answer most likely lies (as answers often do) in moderation. I think touching up a photograph so that it emphasizes the qualities that the artist intends to communicate is important (if not essential in many cases). I also think that if you edit the photograph to the point that it no longer even resembles reality - that the artist is making a very specific statement with that action. And often - I think that so much editing would defeat the purpose of the shoot entirely.
Art can be the lie about the truth. But it should always contain truth.
In my art - both here on dA, and for my RL professional work - I am inventing most images entirely. So each stroke of the pen expresses my own existential view of the universe. I make women beautiful, because I believe they are. I make men strong because I believe they should be.
I don't expect young men to see my version of Superman and begin a self-destructing spiral of plastic surgery and steroid abuse. I expect the viewer to see the lie. To see the exaggeration. And to realize that art is the physical expression of an idea. It is easy to draw perfection. But that to improve one's self, and to live one's own meta-physical value judgments is the truest form of art.
So I would say that instead of becoming something which you despise, you are instead in the constant process of becoming a better artist. A better man.
Keep questioning your art. But always question it with the central axiom that art is the very expression of your being.
And the only question is: how do you feel about the female body?
Answer that truthfully, and create the art to match it, and when they tell the story of you they will tell it with pride, and anyone who listens closely will hear the sweet melody of reverence.
B
PS - the long version is available at your local book store. lol. Sorry - feeling a bit loquacious today ^^
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